Speculating

I hate. With fervor. And that’s why I have the barbed wires on my side of the fence. But will anger douse anger? When has war achieved peace? The greatest war this nation saw was won majorly because of ahimsa. I’ve calmed down. I still do fight. But not with the same ferocity. The vehemence has sort of died on. But I’m aware that its ‘cuz I’ve grown mature and responsible. I’ve realized that to comprehend my side of the fence and to answer questions that mock me in the face, I need to look at the other side.

But will this falling ferocity lead me to acceptance? Sometime in the future, if they come back, will I be able to accept them? Or if I decide to return, will they take me back? Standing at the crossroads I know that I’d accept a few of them. Jus as they are. ‘Cuz I love them way too much to pay heed to their flaws. Human being is flaw and perfection. Should I dissect him into his many flaws or should I help him hone that perfection to a level that it hides all his flaws? But wouldn’t the latter be like building a brick wall around me? Wouldn’t the brick wall push me into an oblivion where I don’t WANT to look at his flaws? Or am I building this brick wall to protect myself? Incase he hurt me again. Is there a heaven and a hell? And because he has now honed his perfection, his goodness, will he be forgiven and spared that hell?

10 did the drill!:

Anonymous said...

All questions and answers are within. And Time the decision-maker when you reply.

man in painting said...

You are in the right track..because the answers are not the keys nor are they the doors..but questions are..answers are just walls..they may look beautiful and give false security like haunted mansions..but questions disturb us and help us to get ourselves out of the those thought structures we live in...
nice one
cheers

P. said...

I have just read this somewhere.."Everyone is gonna hurt you sooner or later. You gotta choose whose worth the pain".
Cynical,eh? But I might want to take it into consideration.
This post of yours also reminds me of the state of wanting to compromise I was a few days ago.
I'm still confused though as to how much do we need to modify or will it just mean lowering our standards which in due course will lead to a major change in our individuality.

All I can say is, if he's worth it go ahead.

Tomz said...

nice philosophical soliloquies..keep on..

Wandering Minstrel said...

answers are leading to more shoutbacks! and thats not what answers are supposed to achieve. Answers are supposed to achieve silence.

Wandering Minstrel said...

@man in painting
I like what you say. But I differ. Cuz your answer doesn't silence my enquiries. The man who lives in the mansion is in a very peaceful state. 'cuz he unlocked the mansion with the answers. I yearn for silence. That is all I want :)

Pecae :)

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Wandering Minstrel said...

@misanthropist
cynic is my being honey :) It's not about compromise. And in a few ways, its also not about changing yourself for someone else. It's about helping a some-dear-body undo his wrongs and become a better person. And just 'cuz in the context of 'now', he's a better person, will he be rewarded? If no, why? Shouldn't all his goods overpower his bads. If yes, isn't that contrary to the very concept of karma. I asked once in my prev posts, Ravana kidnapped Sita but never laid a hand on her--whats more important..him being virtuous or his formerly vile intentions?

Wandering Minstrel said...

@tomz
I will!